| By rabdkarim,
on 12-10-2004 15:31
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I feel so constricted
my souls so twisted
hurt and confused
torn and abused
Addicted to this pseudo-pleasure
Thinking that Im going to live forever.
Im trapped in this world
and Im looking for a way out.
Which way do I turn?
My minds filled with doubt...
The times Ive tried
are the times Ive fallen
lies mixed in with truths
Which ones the True calling?
My hearts in a battle
and its losing
Who is the enemy?
This is so confusing.
Im a seeker but Ive never sought.
My nafs is the hardest battle
Ive ever fought.
And
Finally
After years
of Searching
I
met
you.
You told me theres a way out.
but am I willing to take it?
Its got worldy sacrifice
but am I willing to make it?
You say I gotta bown down
to my Lord
You say I need to
to be able to win
to be abe to escape this life
escape each sin
Ive comitted.
Hes listening, you swear.
You tell me I gotta have faith.
I gotta remember that He is always there.
I hesitated.
and fell deeper
and deeper
and deeper.
So deep that
my world went blurry.
I didnt know
what I was doing.
Where I was going.
What I was thinking.
My soul never knew
it could be this distressed.
I didnt know how I got into this mess.
And then I crashed.
But finally
late one night
I took your advice
I always hoped you were right
But too afraid to try.
So I bowed down
My head against the Earth.
I felt those emotions go
and finally let those tears flow
down my face
and all that hurt
and pain
Erased
Its such a healing
A beautiful
unique
feeling.
My and my Lord
One on one.
Ill be crying
and its okay.
Knowing He hears
Knowing Hell take away my fears.
And all those thoughts
of dying
Gone
Im a seeker
I think I finally sought
that strength I need
and that power to succeed
as a Muslim.
And I found that connection
on that night
when everyone was asleep
and my burdens were too deep
to go on
Alone.
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